These last few days, I've been thinking a whole awful lot about two people. One that broke my heart and one with a broken heart. And for some reason I can't seem to get either off of my mind. I can't help but look back at the mistakes I made regarding them.
The first guy is my ex boyfriend. We where together for 11 months and he stole my heart. Then things just fell apart and I realized that we weren't ment to be. But even with knowing that I still want to sit here and cry about all the stupid things we used to do and all the things he did that did nothing but put a smile on my face. I miss holding his hand in the car and singing along to the radio. I miss running my fingers through his soft, blond hair. I miss his hugs that just ingulfed me in warmth and made me feel that there was no safer place. But most of all I miss who he once was and what he no longer is. I miss the memories but I can't say that I miss him.
The second is another ex boyfriend but I only dated him for a few months but little did I know within those few months, he captured my heart and never gave it back. I broke up with him for the previous guy and I think that is my biggest regret. He was my best friend and he knew me better than anyone on this planet. He could read me like a picture book and I needed him more than I ever could imagine. And then I just dropped him like a hot potato. And after the previous guy and I broke up, all I've been doing is wishing I could go back and get what I had with him. I lost my best friend, boyfriend, and even soulmate for someone that doesn't even compare and I'm dealing with that regret every single day. I love him, and I will forever love him, even if he doesn't feel the same way back. My heart will forever be his.
And through all of this, I've somehow have stayed sane.